all i have to do is stay black and die.

last night i made a decision.
to stop making decisions.
to stop living for a clock.
money.
and the future.

fuck tomorrow.
whats going down today.

i made the choice to not do it.
whatever it my be.
either way.
its not for me.

so today.
i was late to work.
i laid in bed.
far past my alarm.

i struggled with my bed sheets.
i wrestled with my pillows.
i knew what time it was.

i knew where i needed to be.
i heard my bus pass.

but i said fuck it.
i stayed warm on his chest.
i had great morning sex.
i ate apples.
and watched the sunrise.

and i didnt care.

i do what i want.