champagne high.

when i was younger there was this song.
Champagne High by Sister Hazel.
and its roughly about a guy.
who has to attends the girl he once loved wedding.

at the time.
i just thought the melody and harmony.
was something besides the usual counting crows.
to cry myself to sleep to.
but recently i stumbled across this track.
and it haunts me.
the song isnt even that great.
but its lyrics seem to scream at me.
a fate i feel is far tooo real...

"Champagne High"

I wasn't looking for a lifetime with you
And I never thought it would hurt just to hear
"I do" and "I do"
And I do a number on myself
And all that I thought to be
And you'll be the one
That just left me undone
By my own, hesitation


and for the million hours that we were
well I'll smile and remember it all
then I'll turn and go
while your story's completed mine is a long way from done.

[Chorus]
Well I'm on a champagne high
Where will I be when I stop wondering why
On a champagne high
I'd toast to the future but that'd be a lie
On a champagne high, high

Spring turned to summer
But then winter turned to mean
The distance seemed right
At the time it was best - to leave
And to leave behind
What I once thought was fine And so real - to me
And while I'm still gone
On the quest for my song
I'm at your - celebration



Your wagons been hitched to a star
Well now he'll be your thing that's new
Yeah what little I have you can borrow
'Cause I'm old and I'm blue...



Well I'm on a champagne high (so high)
Where will I be when I stop wondering why
On a champagne high (so high)
Toast to the future but that'd be a lie
On a champagne high
Where will I be when I stop wondering why
On a champagne high... high...
So high so high you left me undone
so high, so high you left me undone....

in this.
this top 40s hit about love lost and regret.
i can see myself.
singing this song at his wedding.
on a champagne and whatever else i can find high.
watching him hitch is wagon to a star.
hearing the words "i do"
and i do not want to be in the crowd.
i couldnt fathom the thought of not being his "thing thats new"
this only leads me to believe that
ive got some cleaning up behind myself to do.
so that im not left high and undone, too.