im a bad mother.

fucker.

and i know it.

ive been distant.
neglectful.
not just to this.
but to other aspects of my life.

my job.
my friends.
my boy.
and.
them.

i apologize.
in advance.
for i do not see a chance.
in this.
but.
in me.
yes.
why yes.
actually.

i do.

do you remember all that searching.
that expedition.
that dig.

do you remember.
finding parts of me.
that before.
you thought were dead.

well.
oh .
to the contrary.
those parts.

they are alive.
they are living.
and growing.
they are thriving.
spreading miles.
and miles.
and miles.
beyond horizons.
and the sea.

they are.
infectious.

its contagious.
its passed right from.
faced to face.

all these people breathing life into.
what once.
was vacant space.

it now has taste.
and style.
rhythm.
a tune.

its now part of the mainstream.
prepackaged.
and consumed.

shit it out.
all of it.
and do what it.
what you will.

this message.
it is bottled.
safely packaged.
not built to spill.